Keep calm and carry on

I don't really want to go too much into it but I wasn't doing so well at the end of January / beginning of February. I went out for my birthday on Saturday 27th with some friends. As I mentioned in my last post, I wasn't entirely chirpy so I wasn't really in party-mode. Over the next week I had some really bad anxiety and panic episodes, and feeling really low. The hard thing I find about anxiety and feeling low is that when you're not in that state it's very easy to get complacent as you feel normal and no need to do healthy mind exercises and such. The problem comes though when something throws you into that place and you have no idea what the hell to do about it. Even after realising this, it's hard to change. Over the course of the week I slept a lot, worked solidly and tried to stay calm.

Saturday 4th February - I had the perfect evening to conclude the week. I went down to Bromley to visit the Mayo family. They were going out to mark the 1st anniversary of their time in the UK. The kids were excited to see me which was lovely, although Caitlyn seemed to be expecting someone else when I walked in as she was very confused. But it didn't take long before she was telling me she loved me and I was her best friend. We went to a Thai restaurant and had a lovely dinner, followed by dessert back at their place. The much anticipated snow arrived at 7pm (just 1hr off the forecast). We were at the restaurant at the time so it was very exciting and Chris took the kids outside to check it out. On my way back I checked my phone and it was -1 / feels like -7 and I kid you not there was a bunch of girls on the platform in hot-pants and mini-skirts and massive wedge heels. Yes, sometimes fashion comes at a cost, but not at the risk or getting hypothermia surely! Also, they didn't even look good!

Sunday 5th February - The snow had really set in overnight so Matt and I headed to Hyde Park to take some wintry photos. There was a cold snap all over Europe; Ally was in Munich with Bek, enduring and unbelievable -25! Amazing that that was the only really cold snap there's been, and it was so extreme! We had lunch at a pub and then headed to The Three Kings for the Chelsea vs. Man Utd match... which unfortunately ended in a 3-3 draw after Chelsea held a solid lead! Another disappointing result! Went to bed feeling pretty normal...

Monday 6th February - Woke up and my stomach was absolutely churning! It wasn't long before it was clear I had picked up a bout of foot poisoning! It was awful, fever, the works! On top of this, my loo was out of order, so I had to literally crawl from the 3rd floor down to the ground floor numerous times throughout the day! I usually get pretty emotional when I'm sick so an episode of Extreme Makeover: Home Edition was all I needed to turn the water-works on haha!

The next day I was still unwell and worked from home. I kept the rest of the week pretty relaxed and didn't get up to much.